"You hate me, I get it.
I never asked you to like me.
Yeah, I hate you too.
You're a fucking jerk.
And I spend most of the time around you,
Just glaring or yelling.
You make me just as upset as I make you.
All the bitching, and talking back,
Yeah, it's what we do.

And its sad I can't imagine it any other way.
I can't imagine talking to you over the phone again.
Or just laughing senseless with each other.
I can't imagine letting loose and having fun around you,
Cause the LAST thing I am when I'm with you,
Is me.
I can't imagine you smiling at me.
Or sticking up for me.
I can't imagine you saying hi in the hallway,
Or us just hanging out.

And I know that it's too late to change anything.
However we got here,
Whether it's because of what I said or did,
I can't take it back anymore.
Truth is, I'd rather you hate me
Than not notice me at all.
The saddest part of all,
The part that makes me wanna smash my head into the wall,
Is that I know that...
I love you."

GROW SOME AND JUST MAKE THE FIRST FUCKING MOVE.




On another note.....
You're a fucking jerk. No reason start screaming at me. Why don't u give me a fucking explanation first? You ass.

MAI BLOG ISH DEAD!!! WHOOO!!
Lol...
Just came back from daphnes party! :D
Wish I could sleep over :(
Anyways, damn fun!!!
Haha got there, saw some idiot in the middle of the carpark, running in circles.
And it was Kelley xD.
Cos Daphne they all watching horror movie and she was scared so they left her alone in the parking lot.
Damn stupid ah! The whole time she kept moving, saying "If I keep still, I'll be an easy target!!!" -.-
LMAO?
Oh yea then when we ate at the Chinese restaurant...
Daphnes bro, *dunno his name* was like "We hve to go BARCHZXC *phlegm* to the room"
Retarded la!
Went back drank red wine xD beryl drink three cups, drunk le.
WHOLE BODY RED AS HELL! cannot walk straight line.
Somemore will randomly walk up to us and be like, "Im fine I'm fine."
XDDD
LOL.
We breathed in the helium from the balloons. DAMN FUN!! voice got damn high I tell u xD so funny.
Oh yeah and Kelley decided to smash cake into daphnes face.
Then daphnes dad smashed cake into my face.
BLEH. so I smashed cake onto jessica's face.
And got caked by her AGAIN. :/
BLEH.
I had to leave halfway while they watch Case 39 :( scary movie ^^
Haiz. Oh well.
Tmr siying coming my church!!! Wheeee :)

"Im cooler than you"
"You wish :)"
"what u doing?"
"watching discovery channel :) mythbusters"
"... Are you kidding? I'm so cooler than you"
"yeah right what r u doing?"
"watching cartoon network :)"
"... ... ... it's fucking Tom and Jerry."
XD epicness

Wow epicness xD stayed back for dnt till like 4...
Got home, went playground there meet the guys, they playing soccer in tennis court -.- yeah world cup spirit still not over yet...
So I sit on swing, watch them la.. Damn retarded moment xD :
Seth: APRIL! Please tell this idiot that I'm gonna win this game!
that idiot whose name I forgot xD: NO WAY SAY IM GOING TO WIN!
--------- ten minutes later ---------
Seth: *kicks ball* *goalie didn't catch the ball* *ball flies into goal* WHOO!! YES!! TOLD YOU I WOULD WIN!!! *runs around and screams*
other idiot: *laughing ass off* that's your own goal
LMAO ?
Seth: What the f---- *ball bounces off head*
xD damn stupid la. Laugh until cry already.
Dinner went marina bay sands there. Went onto the double helix bridge thingy. Damn cool :]
Hehe speech day is in 10 days! Shit.
Practicing like nuts la.
But whoever's idea it was to give me 1st clarinet.... -.-
Nvm.
Gahhhh I'm so nervous...
But also kinda excited.
I LOVE MY CLARINET!
I shall name her soon. :D
Hmm... Any good names?

Haha super fun day today :]
Go church, slack with Charmaine... Then go to the back play iPhone games with Thaddeus...
After church went lunch at pastamania with...
Tayying, shavonne, cavin, Josh, annette, weiren, Michelle, Matthew and.... "Bobby"? XD lol ok anyways, damn funny...
After lunch went arcade, play bishibashi. DAMN STUPID GAME I TELL YOU HAHAHA :] last time saw Effie play before.
Haha then the girls wanted go cotton on, drag the guys along, then force them try on girls sunglasses xD
And then, COTTON ON BODY. hahahaha
Guys take one step in, HOLY CRAP BRA *run* xD
Damn stupid ah. We ended up splitting cost for a colourful leopard print C-cup bra for Matthew xD LMAO. Ya Annette was like, "Here, happy birthday"
And Matthew was like "what's this? *looks* OH MY GOD YOU KEEP IT ITS NOT LIKE IM GOING TO WEAR IT" xD
He ended up having to hold the bra the whole time.... Then gonna watch eclipse, queing for popcorn:
Matthew: what am I gonna tell my parents if they ask?? *points to bra*
me: it was on sale
XDDD
damn retarded siol.
Hahaha anyways watched eclipse, made shavonne sit with *ahem*Matthew*ahem* haha
Halfway throught eclipse,
Matthew was like *sniff*sniff* *blow onto tissue*
Tayying: are you crying?!
Lmao...
Hahaha and Josh was like hitting on Taylor lautner man. "he's so buff right!" ;)
Haha so many epic moments today... Including this:
Matthew: oh my god I have gum on my shoe! *right foot step, left foot slide, hophop, right foot step, left foot slide, hophop*
Shavonne: ._. it looks like he's humping himself
XD what??!! Haha damn stupid la.
Oh yeah and :
Annette: I can totally imagine THEM together la! Like u know, in church, holding hands, and be all like, "BUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"
april: yea---
Annette: BUAHAHAHAHAHA
April: I kno---
Annette: BUAHAHAHAHAHA
April: -.-
Lol.
Annette is now my new homo friend :] hahaha awesomeness. Anyways ya come my church, it's full of weird people XD

FAKE PLASTIC BITCH -.-

Haha wrote this song and don't get any ideas who this is about kay ;)
Walking round like you don't know me
You can't see me
You can't hear me
I've seen you round the town and baby
You're smokin, cursin,
Fighting, hurting, and I
I can't imagine what you're going through
Baby why can't you just let me help you?

Cause I cried the tears you wouldn't let hit the floor
You knew that one day she would walk out the door
But the smile that you put on every day's just for show
And you're not who you were before
I don't think I can cry anymore

Living on like I don't need you
I don't want you
I can't feel you
When you smile, I see right through you
You're sighing, lying,
Waiting like a fool
You think I don't know how you feel inside?
Babe you're the only thing on mind

I said the words you wouldn't let leave your lips
I tried and tried to forget but it's you that I miss
And can we just both stop trying to resist this?
Babe I don't know what to do
Cause I'm still in love with you...

I cried the tears that you wouldn't let hit the floor
And you knew that one day she would walk out that door
But the smile that you put on everyday's just for show
And you're not like you were before...
And I don't think I can cry anymore...
*see, the silly thing is that, guys don't like to cry. so being as stupid as we are, when we love them and care about them, we cry for them. we cry when we know they're hurt. and when they won't admit it or show it. and when they care too much about they're ego to cry. we cry for them. a mother for her son, a sister for her brother, a girl for a guy, and me for you. babe I cried for you.*

This June, I :
Broke my best friend's heart.
Fallen for an asshole.
Fought with an asshole.
Fell out with my best friend.
Grew closer to my guy friends.
Drifted apart from my best friend.
Punched a bitch.
Slapped a douchebag.
Cried my heart out.
Screamed my heart out.
Done my homework.
.... LOL ok no I was just kidding...
The last one la....
Just watched starstruck on Disney channel. Sterling knight looks kinda better looking there :) and the girl, looks like Katie Holmes + Victoria Justice. SO PRETTY :) anyways go listen to the songs from the movie. It's really nice :) especially Hero by Sterling Knight :) who knew he could sing so well ._. damn his voice is high.

Do you remember my voice?
I forgot when you heard it last
Do you regret making that choice
Of leaving me in your past, baby?
You know you miss the way I say your name
And I miss beating you in all those games
Tell me it's for the better, then I won't regret letting you go
Tell me that I don't matter, then baby Imma walk out that door
Tell me she makes you happy, then maybe I'll move on if it's true
Tell me that you don't love me, and maybe someday I'll believe you
<3

LOL just realised I never post the blog post from last Sunday... ._. accidentally kept as draft. Ok blogged :3

OMG lol today went for church... Damn fun la xD
Worship, sat with Marcus, thad, Aaron, yunying, Sean and Kazuki... And some other dude lol...
Girl on stage: Turn to the person beside you and say "hi I'm blank"
Aaron: hi I'm blank.
Marcus: oh hi it's very blank to meet you.
Aaron: it's blank to meet you too
Stupid xD
Then go back class, bible study on HOMOSEXUALITY. yes. Lmao.
Ben: blahblahblah lecturelecturelecture
Don't stick love in the wrong place la... Blahblahblah
April: WAIT WAIT WAIT... did you just say, don't STICK love in the WRONG place?
Lol yes I'm corrupted.
Oh yea and we shared a can of pringles.... LOL Marcus got his hand stuck in the can xD HAHAHA FAIL.
Oh and epic line from Sean: "WHY CANT GUYS BE GAY?!"
Everyone: *blink blink* *stare stare*
xD lmao....
Haha...
Then kaz started talking about some swimmer guy, with muscular arms...
Like WTF....
Weird day.... xD

Wow. I don't know if this is good or bad. Like, I just wish you got to know me and not just flirt with me based on looks. So should I play along in your stupid game? Or make my own rules? Damn you. :(

Then you kiss me and suddenly I don't care anymore...
Something in me tells me you're the one I'm looking for.

I hate to admit this.
But I want you back in my life.
The feeling when you act as if I don't even exist...?
It sucks... :(
I know I tell everyone how much I hate you...
When I don't even really know you...
But I want to know you.
I want to be friends :(

Dunno why suddenly thought of this but imma put it here :)
Hahaha damn stupid moment at ecp church outing...
Note: this jap guy can't speak Chinese :]
Kaz: Whats her name? *points*
YunYing: Shuen Li
Kaz: Suann Li!
YunYing: Its Shuen Li!
Kaz: Suann Li? What?!
YunYing: S-H-U-E-N!!!
Kaz: Shu-Ann Li?!
YunYing: Its SHUEN!
Kaz: SUEN SUANN SHU ANN GAH YOUR NAME IS HORRIBLE!
xD epic fail.

If you ask me why I love my parents.
It's cos they'd do anything for me :]
If you ask me why I love my friends.
It's cos they've been through everything with me :]
If you ask me why I love God.
It's cos he gave everything to me :]
If you ask me why I love you?
It's cos I'm stupid :]

Two completely different people... Haiz...

You want attention frm me, you can't just take it. You have to give something back. I'm not just gonna be the next girl...

And you, oh my god, you're so sweet I can't stand it... I just wanna hug you and tell you how much I love you... You're like the best friend i've ever had...

I'm sorry.

In these ever changing days, you're the one thing that remains. I wanna stay like this forever. :)
Wheeeee :) no school tomorrow! Thanks to a certain someone -.- I can't sleep now... Kept me awake until freaking two in the morning last night :'( when I was so used to sleeping at eleven -.-
Blog again tmr, going iceskating :)

Things are getting weird... ._.
You actually said some pretty nice things to me lately...
YES THATS WEIRD ._.